i guess i'm back. i don't know. i just really need to write and talk and...i don't know.

i just got back from the best thirty-six hours of my life and suddenly life sucks again. from 9:45 am yesterday to 9 pm today i was at toni's house at this hugeass sleepover/movie marathon and it was so great because for that time my problems didn't exist. i wasn't emotionally screwed up, i didn't have family problems or a sister...

oh hell. this is hard.

i got to toni's and then we went to costco which was really wierd because everything comes n huge quatities and we just had to get the checker who thought we were a couple of morons because i dropped mom's costco card and we tried to buy ONE six-pack of bagels when they only sell them by the dozen (even though they're packaged in sixes. don't ask me.) and we tried to buy one sik=pack of seven-up which it turn out is only sold by the CASE even though there isn't sa single sign saying that (the checker tried to persuade us there were). trust us. we looked. but we finally got out of there alive.

and we went back to toni's house to find that her mom had gone to the vet's with the puppy and hadn't left the back door unlocked like she said she would so toni tried every window and every door and finally got my dad to pry open the kitchen window and went in then let me in with the groceries. broke into her own housed. then we went online and found the video store and dad took us there and rented us eight movies (in addition to two paper bags full that i brought and four that carey said she'd bring on sunday).

then we went back to toni's with them and her mom STILL wasn't home so we broke open the three pound twelve ounce bag of nestle tollhouse semi-sweet chocolate chips and started eating them while we looked through the movies and tamar called and pointed out that i we arte the whole bag we'd gain a LOT more than 3 punds twelve ounces. you just had to rain on our picnic, didn't you? (JOKING)

and we went and got toni's hair cut and it's all cool and we were going to dye our hair later, turquoise for toni and really dark blue for me. i sat at the hair place on the black velvet couch with the leopard print little pillows and watched while this guy named bob with an earring in his left ear cut toni's hair and showed her the right gel to use for spiking the back.

then we went to megabooks in palo alto and found used copies of a bunch of the novels for toni so she can return the ones she bught at the bookstore and save a lot of money. i love megabooks. it's such a wonderful bookstore with the wonderful collection of plays upstairs and i just adore that whole section of university. with borders and megabooks and kan zeman and zao and pizza my heart and the stanford theatre and the poster shop right off it on waverly and the university coffee cafe and the bikestation and the train station. i could live right there and have everything i need.

fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck. i want to write down everything else while i still remember all the details but i can't. i am incapable of writing more than this. i just...burnt out. to be continued when i get up tomorrow.

i hate my sister.