so i get to ballet rehearsal on monday and i'm still kind of thinking about kate, and juliet, our choreographer and someone who used to hang out with kate, tries to describe to us how much frantic energy we're suppose to have "it's like...kate and me energy!" and that's so true. mrs. valentine wouldn't let them be anywhere near each other in rehearsal because they would have so much energy and be really noisy and not pay attention. so that was my random coincidence moment for monday.

two nights ago i had a really wierd dream, which of course toni had to misinterpret as soon as i told her the cast of characters: tamar, toni, me, and rogan. do not get the wrong idea. hold off on judgment until you get to the rest of the dream. so anyway, tamar and toni and i are sitting around a table in the cafeteria, and rogan is at the table right next to us, on the side really close to where we are. for some reason the three of us at the one table are talking about her using all the codenames we have and giggling and she looks over at us really funny and listens for a minute and totally figures it out, then gets up and walks over to us and the whole story kind of comes out but she's totally cool with it and as she walks away i say "nice hair" and she says "thanks." and right then my alarm clock went off. the strange thing was that when i woke up i just felt like i had achieved some kind of closure on the whole thing and it was just over. and since then i haven't been looking over my shoulder to see her, or craning my neck to catch a glimpse of her during assembly, or trying to run into her in between classes or anything like that. i think i'm adjusting to this having a girlfriend thing. and also, i've been semi-stalking her for a while now, so i think it's about time for that to stop. you want to know how sad i am? i could tell you where and what her 6th period class is, or where you can almost always run into her and when, and where she sits during assembly. pitiful, huh? so i'm quitting, right now. no more steph stalking.

i love you, hannah.

so caddie and tamar and carey and toni and i are walking around the chapel-type-theatre-ish area trying to find mr. capron and i just randomly say "it's my one-week anniversary today!" and caddie says "ooh! who with?" and i say "hannah" and she says "wait, didn't you guys snog a month ago?" yeah, yeah, yeah. tamar's birthday. i'll just leave out the fact that at the time i had a boyfriend. kind of funny how much has changed in a month.

hannah, i really don't care who knows, as long as my family doesn't. and just to make you feel better not many people know where this is so not many people can read it, which is why i can post this.

and i know it's a little early and she doesn't even read this but caddie, will you ring me? i just had to say that...

and carey has to ring tamar. they have too many inside jokes and secret numbers and such for that not to happen.

*laugh* never say anything around caddie that she could possibly misinterpret because believe me she will.

so today is my one-week anniversary. i love you hannah! happy anniversary.

so yeah. new-ish (week old) news: iris is no longer single. iris has a girlfriend. *smile* not going into details now. maybe later.

i'm trying to remember who knows where my blog is. oh, an just to set the record straight, this blog does not exist if anybody asks you. anybody reading this is a member of the secret society of iris's-blog-readers. so don't betray me. please.

oh, and if my parents or sister ask, i don't have a girlfriend. it would just make things so awkward if i had to tell them that hannah, whom i've known since she was eight, is now "more than a friend" *laugh*. so yeah. *singing* i have a girlfriend, have had one for a week...

and even though caddie doesn't read this, i'll send her a little message: stop accusing me of robbing the cradle. she's all mine.

last thursday i gave a speech on the first girl i ever had a crush on (even though i didn't realize it at the time) and i had this video of kate (the girl) and i was showing it to the class and i looked closely at kate and realized that she looked a little tiny bit like katie alexander (i hope i spelled that right...) which really freaked me out.

*bell rings* okay, more later about wierd dreams and coincidences and such.